Hellooo!!

Hm, long time no blog! Haha... yep. Life got busy again. How it does that, I don't know!?

Several things I wanted to happen this summer, won't happen. But a lot has happened and then some! So excited to see whats going to happen next. God is teaching me to let go.. of everything. I feel ready for something, not sure what yet. I want to help people with my talents. Praying for a direction and confirmation... waiting! And working while I wait!

pain.

My soul is strained, a loathsome fear and an annoying cross of passion and frustration. My heart hurts and lumps in my throat cause me to wonder... why i still feel as much?

Why on earth do I still care.

A greater purpose

You know what? I have many dreams. I am always putting so much pressure on myself to perform to maximum capacity and as a result i'm getting weary and uninspired. I also get a lot done though. But how far am I willing to go? And what is the greater purpose? Where's that balance?

I found another dream deep in my heart... I dream of having a family someday. I dream of saying less "I"s and more "we"s. To live and laugh and learn all over again, in a home well worked in and aged with use from children and life.

There's only so much you can learn, until it's time to just do it in real life.

Lost in Corrosive, Caustic Chaos.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WNiD9M59FQE <-- This is neat. You should listen to this neato music while you read.


With all this viral stuff circulating on FB and the new and all popular Pintrest... I feel that our online lives will need a serious overhaul and clutter cleaning soon. SO much stuff! Why, one could spend an entire week just keeping up on peoples lives. And.. they do.

Simplicity. Do we know what it means to say no? Does it not matter that valuable time is being taken from our lives and families? Should a business feel that it's only option is to add to and compete among the media saturated online networking? And can a simplified business, stay in business these days without chasing the appetite and approval of online addicts?

Hmmmm.

Musings at Midnight.

You know, sometimes when we are fixated on something... when we want something so bad, God will with hold it from us.. to see if we really love Him first. And sometimes, when we let everything go... we are surprised at how is given back to us. The best thing is, to learn to be content whatever the circumstances. When we're not chasing things willy nilly, we give God room to lead in our lives. ;)

Why is the music so LOUD?

http://youtu.be/i0MlpEiJiIo


My music is loud, because I want to live and experience life to the fullest. I believe in letting go of everything I have, in not fearing death, in collapsing in the arms of a loving, intimate, patient heavenly Father.




And for those who have a hard time hearing what the heck i'm saying because of the music turned up to high, i'm trying to recommend that you read this book! --> "Love Does" by Bob Goff. 


I hope it will inspire you like it has me... the chapter I was reading today was about Don Valencia, a friend of the author. He is highly cool and has been promptly added to my 'very inspirational peoples' list. 

Purpose driven.

God has created me for a certain purpose and with specific ability. It is not to look cute and be pleasant all the time (which is once what I though was required for me, as for all woman), I now know that my calling is to work with what I have to my maximum efficiency, to create beauty and to be a mentor and friend to all who come across my path. I accept fully what I am and find complete Joy in doing what I was purposed for. In my Joy I praise the name of Jesus and give all honor and glory to God.