Embers.

Watched the night fill with fiery orbs tonight.

I will trust in the plan of God, of my Adonai. For by him and to him and through him are all things. I cannot compete in this world, of the work of others. But I can do all that I can with what I have, to be the most that I can to honor God. Every light is like a thought, a pleasantry, a re-occurring statement that I am loved... and there are a lot of lights in my life right now.

And what of this? I do not wish to be revisited by my mistakes of the past. More so, do I wish to have control over every part of my emotions and feelings. I will not be subject to them. This is a difficult case to struggle with, but the struggle is my own. There comes a point when pain is a comforting thing.

Moving on is essential. Growing up is mandatory. Letting my heart be at war with itself is familiar ground and there is nothing I haven't been brought through alive before. I can only wonder that there is a God who loves me, who wraps me in His arms. And that is the place where I belong.

Holding...

"Lord, i'm coming back to your promises... one more time. Lord that's all I can hold on to."

Every person in the world, struggles. In our fallen state, we all have our own great insecurities that reflects our upbringing... all of us, but in different forms. Whether it be the need to have everything explained; coming up with an explanation if none is currently known... whether it is the need to be loved, regardless of who it comes from... the need to be accepted... respected... known... acknowledged...

I've been disappointed by many people in this life. We all have, some of us, more than others. We so often run from God when things happen... but the one I can hold on to, is Christ. The God/Man. And he suffered too... There will be a day with this faith will be proclaimed as foolishness. There is a spirit of the antichrist in the world already.

Chose today whom you will serve.

::cloudgazer::

Things ping my heart... everyday. My G-d tells me he loves me... everyday. He sends me inspiration, friends, daily food.... he takes care of me and more, everyday! Why am I so blessed? I want to pass it on... it is too much for only me. 

I love you Lord and I lift my voice...

He is my Adonai, my Lord of all, the Lord of Hosts is his name. Did you know when I was conceived He saw me? His Eye is on a cluster of cells. Because He made it. The universe is spinning and whirling and He watches me. He gave me knowledge... and I Love Him. The whole earth sings with his praise! Along with groans from the curse of sin.. which He will set right again. 

 

And all of the people, of G-d sing along... Amen!!

A white world, a lot of white... is what I see. One day we will all wear white, after everything has burned away. It will be made new again. 

Open the eyes of my heart Lord, I want to see you. 

A lot of love, is what I feel... what is this kindness? Jahovah Jirah, let me share all that I have... let me see them, as you see them. Let this be more than a thought, but an overflow of actions as your Love, your red, redeeming love inhabits my soul. 

Amen.

Sunrise, Sunrise.

Delicate little memories are floating right through me, like white whispers in my soul.

on earth...

There's so much more.

We... we do not know what real need is. Read Katie Davis' book, and you'll start to get a taste for it. We... do not quite understand love as well as we should. Read Love Does, and you may find that Jesus is here to wreck all we thought we knew about Love.

I pray that my disease of worldliness is not without remedy. May God be praised in it all!